"I wish a wish for u...I wish a dream comes true, I wish now and wish forever that all ur wishes comes true "

So many tiny lil wishes, dreams i wish came true...would ma interest wane? would this lifetime suffice? Only time can tell. I'm a dreamer, I'm also a lazy whiner at the best...hehe. And sometimes when ma heart is all out for something, circumstances have a way of making sure it doesn't happen. Such is life as Lionel says. :) No harm making a wish list now, is there? And Im also allowed to contemplate it all in print :P Another attempt to compile ma wishlist. Here goes....

1.Be a DJ in the real sense.
Play music again, play better than before and be the hot DJ again ;) Wait for exams to get over, revamp music, save to buy laptop and gear, I don't even own a decent headset, and one that was gifted to me by Sudhin I managed to lose :( Sometimes I wonder do I really have the inclination? Don't expect to be no superstar Dj, but get ma act together. How easy or hard its gonna be while in Dubai I dunno.

2.Bungee jump

As scared as I am after being told by a friend that when ur head goes under the water, its literally like ur life is taken out of u. And when u emerge the gasp of air is like getting a new life literally. Till now I only wondered if I'd have the balls to jump facing forward, settling with the thought that I'll just do a backward free fall which i love anyway. Now I gotta worry bout ma dislike bout water in my nose,ears,eyes and everywhere :P

3.Sky-dive

Now the fact that being so high  wouldn't really be a hurdle in the way of jumping out of an airplane seems the pressing factor here. What concerns me is the whiplash when t chute opens. Do or not to do. Hmm. Good I haven't done the Aukland flight yet since I haven't made up ma mind yet...hehe.

4.Shoot a portfolio

Oh yes, for I dunno how long I've wanted to get all the hair and make up done, be dressed in designer shoes(and clothes!) and snapped just for the fun of it. If I had a better waistline and nicer legs maybe I would consider it more seriously. Wish ma designer and photographer friends came togther and worked on this!

5.Write

If only I spend a fraction of the time I spend mindlessly surfing on this blog instead I'd be getting somewhere. Publishing would be a different ball game altogether. The lil I wrote is all gone with the past. Alas me and my shortfalls which I do nothing about :P But isn't this blog being published on the World Wide Web anyway? A writer in ma own way...

With these are many other wishes of wanting to fly a plane, being more in control of my life, buying a nicer camera, doing more for ma family, etc etc. Oh, I also wish I wasn't such a confused being most of the times!

But the things that TOPS all of these is wanting to be with Lionel. Wanting him next to me. Doesn't matter where we are cause we will make the most of it. Be the happiest we can be, share all the love we can share. Not just with each other, but with everyone because that's what we are most capable of doing. I wish the most that this world doesn't come to an end if its supposed to...I wish we both live long healthy lives with each other happily. Seems right now that life has come to a standstill, like I've ceased to live in some way. Like im losing the time I could have been with him. Man proposes and God disposes also as Lionel says.

God has a plan and it will unfold when it has to. Till then we wait and hope :) And ofcourse WISH some more. Maybe I'll come back and write epilogues to this post.